my weekend

Looking for answers in my bathroom mirror

Some relief

Still questioning

another depressing poem

and this morning

Comments

[Wenda (Daring to Write)]

This is my first visit here and I'm looking forward to more. You've already inspired me to do more scanning (in the technical sense of the word) and to add more hand-written posts and creations to my blog. Thanks. See you again soon.

[Vedrana]

great photo, it captured me :) sending you hugs!

[jen]

oh my, I am so sorry ..i hear, see, and feel your pain.
oh there are so many times when things do not happen as planned...so many "events" for that matter...when it is yours, it can only be sooo disappointing to find out. I do not know the why(s) but it is so much easier I think to look back and see how it could have been different...but along the way, it just is..

when I think of all that I know you have done with this goal of having that gathering then...I know it is only a portion (like the tip of the iceberg)...you undoubtedly put other things on hold at times and stretched yourself...

oh my, you have accomplished so much from the conception to this point...nothing can make that not so...you are without a doubt capable of putting together such a gathering and with having it be a wonderful and inspiring time...and with your experiences to do with it, you have what you did not have before...all of it...the knowledge, the insights, and what about the pride of being THE spark, the energy and the intelligence behind it...

of course you will be disappointed to not see it...but there will be so much to see..it will not be that at that time...other people will be sorry to not be at it then, but it will not be the same kind of disappointment as someone who was involved and was the one that was making it happen (you, of course)...but I hope that after feeling that disappointment with the way it went...(not with you yourself) I hope that then, you will still think of the accomplishment..and stuff happens and even the brightest stars...those with sincere intention and lots of ability and specialness (word?) to make something unique, even they...even they (includes you!) will not see all their come to fruition when they planned..and maybe not ever...but maybe something important of "it" is taken to the next or a future plan...maybe you gained more than you know...and maybe others did too...a recognition of how they would love to attend something just like that...a gratitude for connection with you and/or others through the process of thinking or planning some...so much possible even before the day...

I hope you are feeling better...and that like with the day after a holiday...the post excitement and stress of it all...becomes a welcome calm and opportunity to look back and keep all the pleasant memories...

I admire you for the community you have created, and for your proactive and creative planning and if you could have made a difference ....it would not matter in the least to me...not because I was not signed up :oP...because, I did wish I could go....but because it just would not matter to me...and I do not think I am alone...no new "bad" thoughts...I don't care if it was some little or big thing...in the end...it was never about the fact you were planning this that kept me visiting you at your blog...it is just for who you are and what you have to say and anyway....thanks for being my first creative spark after a long darkness...thanks for being the portal to the blogging world and to support...this was true, before this happening, and after...

I wish you lots of happiness in your endeavors and may you enjoy the road and also the work that is not enjoyable...may it be worth it...and lead to the finishes you envision many times over..

I wish I had something to sell at the creative bazaar and that I could go to see it...I hope it is a fun day! do you want to sell there...are you?
(((melba))) : )

[Delia]

You took initiative in your own life on behalf of yourself and your creativity...then, you took steps to share that with others. Melba, you could never do wrong by doing that!
Best to you...
Love,
D.

[gretchenaro]

I love the blog pages and your pic. This may be kicking your ass but you appear to be kicking right back! :)

[mary ann]

oh my dear melba...it is OKAY...pls. don't beat yourself up! you are not a FAILURE.

love you,
mary ann (((((GREAT BIG GIANT HUGS)))))